Distrust the Trustworthy

10:00 pm

25 minutes before I publish this article,





I have received another HILARIOUS news from a person who is so close to me,


News about GREEDINESS!




Why do they need to do that?

                         Why do they need other innocent people to satisfy their wants?


                                         Why do they need to fool others to call their selves GREEDY?



People are parasites to their own kind.

                 There are people who entrust their hope to a "life changing opportunity"...

                         and There are people who use those hope as an advantage.


     Okay let's start this story!


There was this group that publicized an opportunity for those people who need luck!

          They promised that they will award winners for their game.

                   When I call a game it means it involves money, A LOT OF MONEY!

                       
This group encourages people to buy their products. Apply for their game and win!



"GANUN PALA YUN!"


Fortunately, of coarse, One participant of that game won and expected to bring a bacon!


but That promise was turned into stone.



It was just a bait!



They used that participant to get what they want.


They promised to give a 100% guarantee, but it turned to be a <10% guarantee.



They extracted a lot of money from People's penny!



The group with its companion decided to share the money extracted.


and the worse thing is....

They encourage people to "Illegalize" their personality and identity to continue their modus!


I never thought that this group can do this kind of greediness!




They set rules to fulfill,

                                           They provided standards to obey

                                                                             They bring orders to abide.


                             
But they broke it!


This groups.......



They should not be respected,

     They should not be seen,

              They should not be trusted!

           





                         I want to publicize your wrong doing!

                                    But I LOVE SAFETY!

                                            I am not coward!

                                                       I am not afraid!

                                                                 


                                                   Beware!



Before you ECHO your FALSE ADVOCACY,


                                              THINK!


      A CHILD IS LAUGHING!
     

   

             

6 years from now

Yesterday, we, EGGS + 2,  went to Dairy Farm to inspect a setting for our friend's film.
There we bought Yogurt too.

After that, we decided to go to Green Valley to have some Barbecue Snack before we go home but Fortunately we decided to go to Sports Complex.

We had joy, We had fun, We had seasons in the fog.

After visiting the complex we decided to go back to terminal, walking.

There we talked about our future:



Our Lives, 6 years from now!

Our Achievements, 6 years from now!

6 individuals yet sharing with only 1 dream.

We talked our reunion, our memories that we can make 6 years from now.

We promised with each other that We shall keep in touch even though we are 3000 miles apart.

It was so nice to imagine,
It was so great that night,
Twas' like we were ready to face the future.

Once we carried the name EGGS in our identity, it shall last forever!

Actually we are  not the only people in the group, We have other members of the OHANA!


Ohana means FAMILY, and no one must be left behind!

We are family.
When one of us is in trouble
               We are there to support and help.
We bully each other, but we do not let others humiliate us.
No one shall DARE to underestimate us!
No one shall have the guts to step us down!

I believe this family is strong and can even transcend lifetimes!


Engineering Guild in Giant Steps + 2

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NUMB

I feel NOTHING...............

I am not Happy,

nor Sad,

I am not Excited,

nor afraid.

I am not jealous,

nor secured.

I feel NOTHING.

3 months before I wrote this post. 2 terrible news changed ME.

(flashback)

Since I was a child, I taught myself how to control my emotions. I taught myself to think rational and balance all situations. I grew to be a PERFECTIONIST. 

Back when I was a child,

I committed a lot of mistakes,

lost a toy, stole a 5 pesos in our cabinet, wrong solution for area and perimeter, spilled gravy sauce, my first cuss, my first pee in the class, did not complete the A B C in the notebook, I spanked my sister, burned rice, cat stole our food, no sports, tv maniac, improper "kammet", bought a sim card worth Php. 100, and all other simple mistakes I can remember in my mind. I grew up with full of criticisms and opinions. 

I was bullied, I was humiliated, I was shocked, I was labeled and Underestimated.

All these scene was kept by memories, hid by time and suppressed by determination and dreams.

I am already 19 years old and grew feeling nothing.

-end flashback-

These terrible news made me feel angry, sad and guilty. 

I judged a person, cursed a person, and cussed a person.

I blamed my self and let my negative aura drove me to circumstances.

I prayed to God, not to feel angry to anyone

I prayed to God to give me an inner peace.

And because of these rational thinking,

I feel no emotions.

My mind dominated my emotions,

Even my Love Drive faded

I am a Living Dummy of my own Body.

I frequently thinking Lunatic Things,

But does not mean I'm going Insane,

I am NUMB, not CRAZY

There's a diffrence.

Every mistake I made,

I feel irritated (is that a feeling? yes, I do had a feeling!)

Sometimes I wanna cry just to lessen my burden,

but why is mind telling "You should not be crying, don't show your weaknesses"

Why?!

 Maybe 

because I used to manage all these emotions when I was a child.

Maybe 

because my past was too painful and my heart became immune to all these stuff.

I don't consider myself Mature because I am still not,

But as time goes by,

I am learning how to fight,

How to bend with society,

How to think professional.

I don't know what will happen to the future, but as of now

11:47 pm Feb. 26, 2015 

Emotion has no space for Decisions and Thinking!

Beautiful Nightmare

Another night has fallen........................

              T'was a memorable night.............................

                      yet maybe that NIGHT was too young for us.................

             

     Why did you left me behind?

                    Why did you make me feel this way?

                              Why are you hurting me this way?

                                          Why? Why? Why?

                            I thought we could spend the night together,

                                       I thought we could share the memories,

                                            I thought you will never go that night.

                                          That night was intended to be my most wonderful time,

                                                       But because I cannot let you stay with me,

                                                              That night was my beautiful nightmare.

                                                 


  I want to hate you and feel sorry,

                                                         but I can't,

                                                             Because If I do that,

                                                                   That will be the most painful thing I could do to myself.

                                                                  

                                                               

                               Please, 

                                       Just give me..

                                                 Time to....

                                                          Forget this.....

                                                                    Feeling and......

                                                                            Promise if that moment comes,

                                                                                 Pain will be just a WORD!

                                                                                    

                                                                 

                                            

                         

покнат

I thought I am fine again.
...............................I thought I could get over it.
...................................................I thought the feeling has gone.

                Two weeks before I started writing this article, there was this person that triggered my attention. An attention that I used to forget. An attention that I don't wanna feel again. Why is it so hard to resist this feeling, ever since I know how to control my temper, attitude, actions and mind but why can't I control my emotions. It feels like there is a volcano that wants to explode inside my heart and strike above my head.

                I envy those people who were proud to tell the world who they want to love and live. I envy those love that is worth fighting for. And, I envy that they can and I cannot.

                I am again experiencing a battle without a chance of winning. And now, This Feeling is  starting Over Again!