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                             I hate the feeling of being a full armored and equipped warrior but then at the moment of battle, I lose without starting.

                            Why can't I resist YOU, why can't I forget you! Giving my time, my effort, my care and love!

                             Every time I hug you, squeeze you,  pinch you, it feels like realizing that I do not you, Not because I cannot but because I am not!

                              I hate you because I am now totally "as in" totally in love with you! Loving you sometimes makes me hopeless, "DEFINITELY AND ABSOLUTELY!"

                             You know the feeling of a bursting volcano? I am afraid to feel so! I am afraid for the time that I cannot hold my self, my emotions, With a blink of a moment, I will say "I Love YOU" pulling you towards me and hug you! Please don't, Please 'cause if I do that I know I'm dead!

                              You know the feeling of extreme jealousy! you know that! When someone or even your friends are hugging you, holding your hands, saying "flattery" to you and you Smile him/her back! Yes! "him/her" even your same sex I feel jealous, ENVY (maybe that's the right term)!

                               You know the feeling when I cannot offer you a thing! When sometimes I cannot join you! When sometimes you are sick, you are alone, you are in need, I ALWAYS WANT TO BE THERE FOR YOU "BUT" sometimes I don't have the initiative to do IT first for you!

                               I felt regret when I opened a opportunity for you, a CHANCE for you that I cannot give by myself! I felt regret when you are happy to enter that CHANCE with another ONE! I felt regret when I am the one who pushes you to the one I don't like for you! grrrrrrr! I cannot focus on my studies, I cannot work well, I cannot think as I used to be! 'Cause every time I hear silence, your NAME , is bursting out on my mind! 

                              I really miss you! I really do! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU! grrrr! I wanna shout out your NAME!

                             I don't know how to react when somebody tells your name first, when every time I say "I missed a Person"! Maybe HAPPY but I feel Afraid more, because they might know who you are! booooom!

                            I like the way how we opposite we are! That's make me complete!

                            I love you! I always asking for a chance to WALK WITH YOU AT THE SHINE BRIGHT OF THE MOON! JUST "YOU AND ME"

                           How BLESSED that person! That person whom you are MEANT TO BE! I want to scream your Name as in! Every time I wake in the morning, "Good Morning ________" is my first word!

                           Don't you know that I just bought my CAMERA just to have a Picture called "YOU and ME"! but also capturing the moments with my FAMILY! And a family with you!

                           You know the feeling that I always mention you to my family! The way I mention you! If you could just see my happiness in doing that! haaaay! I am so in LOVE!

                           How I wish I could hold your hands AGAIN!  I missed that Day, when you suddenly HOLD MY HANDS and LED OUR WAY!

                                                                                                                                        6/18/1954

The First Draft of our Destiny!

AND NOW.....
     
       THE FIRST CHALLENGE HAS BEEN SERVED!

                                          Finally, we have stepped in our most major role in college. We are now Third Year.

                      Major problems, pressures, criticisms, challenges and hindrances will be faced. This will define what our "Fighting Spirit" and "Determination" truly means. Giving more efforts, time, response, initiative, commitment and willingness. Being more observant in many terms such like the people who you will jive with.



                        And in our first day of being a third day, made our selves more competitive. We were given assignment in our Building Design "Anatomy of a House".

                    

                                       

2nd day of being an apprentice: My EYE, the LEVEL and the ROD

                       The Second Round of GAME of REALITY has just BEGUN!




         It was dawn when I and my father woke up and face again another round of our destiny.

         When everything was all set and we're ready to go, my father dared me a challenge, he drew a solid figure, put a dimension and asked me the volume of that figure.

        It was so simple figure yet hard to analyze, actually it is pyramidal prism with a combination of trapezoidal prism. I solved the trapezoidal part but whoaw, I was shocked 'cause I forgot the formula of the pyramidal prism. hahahahahahaa.

       That's why my father told me that, "I must go back to my previous lessons, my simple maths, so that you still mark in my mind."

      The true SURVEYING was now on my face. It was a great pressure because I volunteered to do the surveying, and that data I gathered will be official as their elevations.

       I now say, "NOW I KNOW!" -on how to survey, the functions and MOST ESPECIALLY and the most EXTREME QUESTION OF ALL, WHY IS THAT THEIR BALL PENS ARE PLACED AT THEIR EARS! HAHAHA!

      I enjoyed it even though it was tough and exhausting, some of these pictures were taken by self timer but most of it was taken by my father. Practice makes my eye sight accurate and precised! My EYE, the LEVEL and the ROD will have a MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING SOON! IN GOD'S GRACE!

1st day of being an apprentice: Bond with my Father!

                                The hardest game that a man can play is the GAME OF REALITY!

A pile of lines in a piece of paper is a pipe of concrete............
     
        A simple math in the calculator is the dimensions and volume of soil.......

                  An image in the blue print is simply the hectares of landscape......




               There was a man who told something to a  lady who is currently preparing for her career. "You are expert in terms of computers, but then have you seen the actual image of that work you've been working at?" "No, sir!" the lady replied.


               5th day of June, I decided to go to my father so that I can visualize my future, and actually my first time to bond with my father again for so many years. I was introduced with his co-worker Engr. Boyet and Arch. (kuya) Michael, they were so nice that made my self comfortable easily.

               My first day there, was so exciting cause, I had visited my schools in my childhood days, the market, the Gold Ridge where I grown up.

               I tried surveying that time, my first time actually. I thought it was hard, yes though but once you understand the function of that equipment you can easily absorb the benefit from it.

              I am fighting with the sun, the thirst, the pressure. I was taught about the basic construction of roads. the pavement, manhole,  RCP and RCB. the center and many more.

              After that, when we leave and went back home, I was taught driving by my father. On how to start, on all functions of clutch, break and silinyador and also the kambyo haha, i thought it was easy! I stirred the manibela so hardly and hold the kambyo so firmly. But because of the fact that says "Practice makes perfect" i made my feet and hands so gently but of course with only 1 hour of driving i have so many flaws. but it was a wonderful experience though!

            My father and I went to SM  Pampanga for a dinner that turned out also in canvassing for his dream cellphone. there I have bond with my father again.